So here’s the scoop on the thyroid. I went back to the doctor today to see how much information I could get and have my tests results explained and she said that my diagnosis is hyperparathyroidism and thyroiditis. You may be asking, what the heck is that? I have NO IDEA! If you really want to know, please refer to our good friend Google! So now they are referring me to an endochronologist who will apparently be able to figure it out from here. Thanks for your prayers! In the mean time, check out these chalk drawings. Yes…that is chalk….on the sidewalk. Cool, eh?
This has already been a busy week and it’s only Tuesday! Since Sunday I have spent about 9 hours at Starbucks studying for my economics test that is coming up on Thursday. I don’t really understand that class at all, so I am hoping that all of this time spent on it is going to pay off. As soon as I finish that test on Thursday I will start really studying for my accounting test that is on Saturday. There are a few things that I really need to focus on for that class that I just don’t understand. So school is taking up a lot of time. Then there is work, getting ready for the big children’s pastors conference coming up in the Fall is taking up a huge chunk of my time as well as allowing time for the Thirsty Conference that is happening this week in our facility. But as if that weren’t enough, I had to take today off of school for several tests at Northside hospital and I have to take Thursday off of work to do a court visit for a paper that I have to write for my law class. Sounds like fun right? For those of you wondering about the tests that I had to have done today at the hospital, here is the scoop on that. A few weeks ago I went to the doctor for a physical and they did the routine blood work. When the results came back they showed that the calcium level in my blood was too high. So the next week I went in for a thyroid ultra sound and some more blood work. The ultra sound came back clean but the blood work came back the same as before. So today I had to go in for another ultra sound and a nuclear scan. I had to go in this morning and take a radio active pill, then go back in 6 hours later for an MRI-type scan. They took 3 pictures of my thyroid that took about 8 minutes each. Not too bad, but all of these doctors visits are really messing up my schedule. The symptoms that I am experiencing are excessive thirst, I’m really tired all of the time, and some short-term memory problems. So I really would just like to figure out what it is so that I can get it taken care of! Any prayers in this would be greatly appreciated! So that’s the update for now! Maybe I will have something a little more interesting after this crazy week is over!
So I came across a website today for a church in California called Christian Life Center. I am not sure if Graham Cooke has anything to do with it or not, but there is some stuff about him on there. Anyways, that is totally not the point. They have this section on their website called “Decisions that Define Us.” It was very interesting to read and inspired me to come up with a resolve that defines me. So this is my attempt at taking some of the thoughts from that list that really stirred my heart and adding some of my own thoughts.
I know that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, the one true God, the only God. I know that through His sacrifice on the cross I have been washed clean. I know that nothing can separate me from His love, no matter how bad my day, how bad my attitude, or how bad my actions. I know that God’s grace brings me closer to Him, not farther away. I have decided that I am nothing without Him, and although He does things that I will never understand, I know they are not done outside of His love and He is what I have to stand on. That I understand. I know that He holds my righteousness in his hand so that I can never lose it. I know that He has called me to live and upright life that points toward eternity with Him. Because of that I have decided that teaching the Gospel without demonstrating the Gospel is not enough. Good preaching, good doctrine, and being a good person is not enough. I have decided that having a good church is not enough, good fellowship is not enough, and just being a member of that good church is not enough. I know that having Bible studies is good, but not good enough, that just making it to Heaven is not my goal, and that knowing about God without truly knowing and experiencing God is meaningless. I know that change without transformation is intolerable, and that staying the same is not and option. I have decided that gifting without character is futile. I have decided that singing songs without worshiping is hallow and having meetings without God showing up is pointless. I have decided that having faith without works is not enough and having works without love is NOT ACCEPTABLE. I have decided that I can’t really love God without God and therefore can’t love others without God. I have a relationship first with God, then with others. I have decided that confident faith is good and bold faith is better. I have decided that hearing about the Holy Spirit without experiencing Him is silly, that believing in healing without seeing people healed is absurd, and that believing in deliverance without people being delivered is absolutely ridiculous. I have decided to be Holy Spirit filled, Holy Spirit led, Holy Spirit empowered- anything less doesn’t work for me. I have decided to be the one telling the stories of God’s power- not the one hearing about them. I have decided that living saved, but not supernatural is living below my privilege and short of what Christ died for. I will honor those who have gone before me in the faith and champion and respect those who go to the nations to spread the news of Christ. I will not be a squatter- a person who takes up space others have fought for without improving it. I have decided to be a radical lover and outrageous giver. Therefore, I will take advantage of the time that God has given me here. I will learn, not so that I can know more, but so that I can be transformed by God. I will trust the heart of God that beats in love for me. I will stand firmly on the promises that He has given and not dwell on the mistakes of my past. Life lies before me, not behind. My past is covered by Christ, my present is with Christ, and my future will be with Christ. Regret stops here.
Well they didn’t let me give platelets again today. This time it was because the last time I was there, the nurse put in the computer that I had lived in Costa Rica, but forgot to put that I have been back for more than 12 months and am now eligible, so the computer says that I am not. They have to override that but can’t until their boss is in on Monday. Oh well! I think I will wait a few months before I try that again!
So tonight I was driving home from this volunteer appreciation event that we did and I was listening to the radio. A song I really like came on, so of course I turned it up! It was “On the Way Down” by Ryan Cabrera. Now I realize that many of you may not have the appreciation for Ryan that I do, and as devastating as that is, it is not really the point of this blog! You see as I was rocking out to this fantastic song, the words to the chorus really hit me. I love when God touches me with song lyrics because I love music! The chorus goes like this:
On the way down I saw you
And you saved me from myself
And I won’t forget the way you love me
On the way down I almost fell right through
But I held onto you
Last year when I went to Ryan’s concert (yes, I have been to his concert…twice actually!) he prefaced this song by saying that it was in fact about a time in his life when he was turning to a lot of different things for satisfaction and just when he was about to give up Jesus saved him. Interesting? I thought so. Once again, not the point of this blog. The point is, this was a reminder to me of how faithful God is. There are so many times, over the last 6 months especially when I have felt like I was falling farther and farther down and God has pulled me back up, and saved me from myself. But at the same time he has allowed me to feel pain an experience grief and let me fall down, so that once again, I would have to hold onto him. No matter how far I fall, it is never too far for Him. And I won’t forget the way He loves me.
On another note, I am going to try and give platelets again tomorrow, so please pray that it works out this time!
Today I went to the Red Cross to donate my platelets for leukemia patients. I made this appointment a couple of weeks ago since I am on Spring break right now and have a little extra time. It is a 2 hour process, so I definitely needed to have extra time to do it. My biggest concern is that I was going to get there, they would test my iron, and then say that my levels weren’t high enough. So I have spent the last few days basically living on raw spinach! Good news, my iron levels were plenty high, so that wasn’t a problem. Then the lady said she needed to take a look at my arms. It is a two needle process (one in one arm to take the blood out, then they spin the platelets out of the blood and put the blood back in the other arm) so they need to make sure they have at least one really big vein to work with. I am left handed, so that is where my biggest vein is. She took one look at my arms and said we weren’t going to be able to do it. You see I had a physical yesterday and they did some blood work and somehow managed to bruise the vein, disqualifying me for giving platelets. I was pretty bummed, because I wasn’t able to donate when Rick was sick and so I am doing it now, but they said I can come back in 2 weeks and try again. It did give me 2 free hours in my day though, which allowed me time to go to REI and I made a great discovery! They make Nalgene water bottles for toddlers that have a sippy lid! This may sound dumb to you, but it totally made my day! Ella will be presented with her sippy Nalgene tonight when I go to babysit! Here is a picture of it for your viewing pleasure!
I believe the Bible when it says,
“O DEATH, WHERE IS YOUR VICTORY? O DEATH, WHERE IS YOUR STING?”
But why, after 6 months, does it not stop stinging?