Tired

I couldn’t sleep last night. Well, I slept for a couple of hours but then at about 1:30 I woke up and had that “what if my alarm doesn’t go off” paranoia. Finally, after a couple of hours with my mind racing, thinking about everything that is unnecessary to think about in the middle of the night, I got up at 4:15. I got to work at 5:30, which is so very wrong!

There is really no point to this blog other than to try and keep myself awake during this last session of the conference. Once this thing is over I am writing my paper for school and going to bed. Can’t wait!

A Day Alone

I spent the whole day by myself today. I had a couple of text messages from some people, but that’s about it. I have always considered myself kind of a loner, but I have had a few days like this lately and I have to say, I am ready for some human contact tomorrow! Good thing because it’s Sundays @ North Point (a conference) tomorrow and I will be talking to a lot of people! Maybe I am more of a people person than I think.

A few thoughts from my day alone:

1. I went and saw the Great Debaters this afternoon and I highly recommend it! One highlight to my cinema experience, other than the movie of course, is that I got a large popcorn and a large Coke Zero for just $4.50! I didn’t even come close to finishing either of them, but it was a great deal! I was pretty excited about it since I also only had to pay 75 cents for the movie (thanks to a couple of gift cards that still had a few bucks left on them).

2. It is going to be a really busy semester at school. I went through all of my classes and put everything on my calendar for the whole semester and it was a little overwhelming. I have one more paper to write this weekend still, which I totally should have done today.

3. I get my feelings hurt when people don’t respond to a text. I didn’t realize this about myself. Maybe it’s just because I was a little lonely today and it was my way of reaching out for human contact, or maybe it’s because I am a words person and those stupid little messages on my phone mean something to me. Getting a text makes me feel like someone is thinking about me, even if it’s just in response to my own. I wasn’t looking for a text conversation, just a response. Either way, it happened twice today, with two different people, and it hurt my feelings both times. That might sound stupid, but that’s totally fine with me. Welcome to the world of a words person. Not sure what the point of writing this was, but it made me feel better to get it out there.

4. The Diety Formerly Known As God (by Jarrett Stevens) is a great book. It is not only entertaining to read, but it is laced with truth and I have learned so much from it. As a matter of fact, I am going to read some more of it when I am done writing this post.

5. I am having a tough time these days. 2008 has been a rough one so far, but there are a lot of things to look forward to. Thanks to all of you that are praying for me.

LOST

LOST, one of my favorite shows, begins this week and I am so excited! In honor of the return of this fantastic program, I am including a recap of the past seasons. It is worth all 8 minutes!

WARNING: If you are currently making your way through the past seasons, do not watch the recap, it will spoil everything!

If you don’t care about the past seasons, or if you have already watched them, definitely watch it because it’s really funny!

Click here to watch!

Dependency and Value

I was scrolling through my original blog (yeah, the one that most people don’t have the link to!) and I came across this post that I wrote more than two years ago. I thought it partnered with the expectancy post from a couple of weeks ago, so I am replaying it on this blog!

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Today something really stood out to me. Whenever I am really tired I am always more mellow and tend to observe more than participate. Today was one of those days. I noticed more than ever how much we depend on people. But when I say that, I don’t say it positively. I mean how we depend on people to define us and give us value, and make our bad days into good ones. I was just struck by so many people, both at school, work, and everywhere else I went today, that are looking for themselves in others. Looking for a hero. This made me think about several different conversations that I have had with people over that past few months and it is so evident in those as well. We are looking for others to solve our problems, to put a smile on our face, to tell us what we mean to them. That’s not always bad. I think that God gave us people to encourage us, to make us smile, to do life together, but that is not what I was noticing today. What I saw today was more of a dependency, not an appreciation of a gift. It has really made me think about how I view the relationships in my life. Am I looking to be rescued by those people? Do their actions (or non-action) effect the way I feel about myself or effect my attitude? Are my constant thoughts based on pleasing others? Do I do things for people because I love them and want to show them Christ’s love, or because I want them to like me? Am I looking to others to be what only Christ can be for me? It’s definitely something to think about. On top of all of this, a song came on while I was in the car, another Matt Wertz song. (This is a must have album!!) It is just so right on with what God was showing me today. I wasn’t going to put the whole song on here, but I think I need to! It’s called “That For You” by Matt Wertz It is definitely worth the download on itunes!

I’m not made of gold
Thought I told you so
With your hopes so high
I’ll tell you one more time
You’ll hear me if you try

I could never be that for you
I could never be that for you
I could never take your cloudy skies and make them blue
You keep on telling me I light your day
You’re hanging on to every word I say
I could never be that for you, that for you

Put it on the line
Wear it on your sleeve
It’s up to me now
But I’ll never make your broken heart begin to beat

I could never be that for you
I could never be that for you
I could never take your cloudy skies and make them blue
You keep on telling me I light your day
You’re hanging on to every word I say
I could never be that for you, that for you

I can’t be your everything
I can not make things right
I’ll tell you one more time
Maybe you’ll hear me if you try

I could never be that for you
I could never be that for you
I could never take your cloudy skies and make them blue
You keep on telling me I light your day
You’re hanging on to every word I say
I could never be that for you, that for you

Great Deals

Chris (Leah’s fiance)told me about a really cool website today! It’s called Steep and Cheap and has some incredible deals. I just bought a pair of $90 sunglasses for $25.

They put up an item at a really cheap price and then they sell it until it runs out. Sometimes it’s only up there for a few minutes. When it’s gone they move to the next item.

The last time I was on it (about two minutes ago) there was a $300 Oakley jacket up for $90 bucks. So awesome! Have fun shopping!

Super Tuesday

Super Tuesday is coming up in just a few weeks and I have to admit, I am concerned. Who are the real candidates here? I have no idea who I am going to vote for.

I think it’s important over the next few weeks to really research our candidates. We are given the opportunity in our country to vote and I think we should be held accountable. So, find out where you are supposed to vote and go! Do some research. Vote Smart.