While I Wait

Waiting can definitely stir up guilt and shame for me.  Thinking about mistakes I’ve made.  Thinking I have messed everything up for myself.  I have been having some really incredible conversations with a new friend about this as well and it’s good to know that I am not the only one that struggles with that kind of thing.

So the morning after one of those great conversations I read this verse in Deuteronomy (30:19-20):

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 20 and that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him.

When I read it the idea of choosing life hit me so hard!  I love that God is telling us that we have the option of life or death right in front of us and he wants us to choose life!  He doesn’t want us to hold fast to our past failures but to hold fast to him.  He wants us to choose life so that we can really live!

I put this verse on a couple of index cards and put it in key places around my apartment as a constant reminder that while I wait, I need to choose life so that I can truly live!

Waiting

I have definitely been in a season of waiting for awhile.  For the last few years it’s been waiting for personal dreams and desires.  Still waiting on all of that!  For the last few months it’s been waiting in the professional arena.  I’m also waiting on my shoulder to heal.

I’m not a good waiter.  But, lucky for me, Jeff Henderson just finished a series on waiting (The Waiting Room) at my church.  It’s so easy to feel forgotten by God, it’s so easy to feel like other people are getting everything that you have ever wanted.  It’s easy to feel anxious, jealous, and even angry sometimes.  But there is something Jeff said that profoundly affected me.  We all know I love a good quote, so here is one that I have been thinking about a lot lately:

“God has never forgotten His people, He never will forget His people, and He’s not going to start with you.”

Things I’m Learning

That’s right folks, I am writing a real post tonight!  No quotes, no youtube clips, just me.  I can’t guarantee deep, but I can guarantee honest, so here goes!

These are some things I have been learning lately:

  • God is sovereign.  OK wait, I totally knew that already.  But, I had never partnered it with an equally true characteristic of God: He has a Father’s heart for us.  I honestly don’t think you can picture one without the other.  God knows all, is over all, and nothing happens out of his control.  But Rick still died.  Meaning he allowed that to happen.  That’s where I have to remember that Father’s heart part.  He loves me relentlessly, through the pain, in the pain, despite the pain, because I feel pain.  It’s all a part of his Father’s heart.  I am so grateful for this truth and for my friend Matt for reminding me about it.
  • Friends are so important.  Having a handful of good, solid, wear your heart on your sleeve friends is so important.  Have more than one close friend.  Have a handful.  I need them.  Not in the way I need God, don’t hear me wrong.  But I have come to believe that God put a need in me for close girl friends.  You have to to have people to share your heart with.  As I have discovered more and more the need for that, God has placed woman at exactly the right time, with similar stories, right into my path.  I didn’t even have to look for them, they just showed up.  I love it!  I just finished  a long dinner with one of them, a new on in fact,  and my heart could not be more full.
  • I cannot write right-handed.  During this whole shoulder surgery thing I have tried, but I can’t do it.  I will never understand how people write with that hand.
  • On that same note, I now believe if I had been taught to bat, golf, hold a hockey stick, etc with my left hand (instead of being taught to play righty cause that’s how people knew how to teach me) I might have actually been good at team sports.  If you have a left handed child, teach them how to do everything left handed, they will be better at it that way.
  • I need work that makes me feel productive and useful.  I didn’t realize how important that is.  I feel so full and productive after a day of steady work that is done well.  On days where there isn’t much to do, even the most mundane task feels difficult.  I would much rather be exhausted from lots of work.
  • I am 28 years old and still have no idea what I want to do with my life…and I’m OK with that.  I am totally trusting that sovereign God with that Father’s heart to let me know what’s next.  I have decided not to wait for “the right door to open” but to simply stick close to Him.  It seems the closer I am to Him, the clearer the way becomes.  I don’t think God works on that whole “open/closed door” theory anyway.
  • I LOVE kids.  I think I already knew that, but it’s been re-emphasized during this time where I can’t hold kids.
  • If I never have to wear a sling again, I would be OK with that.
  • I tell really really long stories.

That’s all I have for now!  More to come…get excited…

Soul City Church

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Hey Everyone! I want to tell you about a very cool new ministry that is starting up! My friends (and LOST small group leaders) Jarrett and Jeanne Stevens are stepping out in faith and starting a new church in Chicago. Jarrett has been on staff with us at North Point for a few years and they both worked at Willow Creek before that.

A little less than a year ago God placed this church on their hearts, and in an incredible act of obedience they are selling their house and moving back up to Chicago to touch the souls of the city there. Last night I went to the very first gathering at their house in Atlanta to hear all about it and I am so excited!

Check out their website and read all about it. When you are done there, pray about how you can get involved. There are many opportunities to pray, give, or even pack up your bags and move to Chicago. But if moving isn’t for you, they are raising some serious funds right now and you can give on their website. Just click here!

Congrats to Jarrett and Jeanne on the launch of the church!  I can’t wait to see where God takes it!

I Thought It Was Going To Be Funny…

So normally when someone sends me the link to a YouTube video I am prepared to laugh.  Yesterday I got a Twitter from my friend Randy that said:  @kellymoreton and @jamiewaddy this reminds me of our green room lunchtime mj tribute.

I naturally assumed this was going to be a funny video because our lunch time tribute was, well, not so good.  But I was wrong!  How is this guy not in the studio making a CD that I can listen to?!

Great Recipe

I was watching the Food Network yesterday and saw Giada make this, so I decided to give it a try. Keep in mind my left arm is in a sling and I am left-handed. So I made this one-handed with my non-dominant hand, so that tells you how easy it is!

It really was the best dinner that I have made in a long time so I wanted to pass it on. I also made broccoli and a side salad to go with it.

Ground Turkey Meatloaf With Feta and Sun-dried Tomatoes

Turkey Meat Loaf with Feta and Sun-Dried Tomatoes
1/2 cup plain bread crumbs
1/3 cup chopped fresh flat-leaf parsley
1/4 cup chopped garlic and herb-marinated sun-dried tomatoes
2 cloves garlic, minced, optional
2 eggs, at room temperature, lightly beaten
2 tablespoons milk (I used skim but use whatever you have already.  The actual recipe called for whole)
1/2 cup crumbled feta cheese
1 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper
1 pound ground turkey, preferably dark meat (I used dark and it was great!)
Directions

Place an oven rack in the center of the oven. Preheat the oven to 375 degrees F.

Spray a 9 by 5-inch loaf pan with cooking spray. (I used a bread pan that I think was a little smaller than that but the temp and time still worked out.)

In a large bowl, stir together the bread crumbs, parsley, sun-dried tomatoes, garlic, if using, eggs, milk, feta, salt, and pepper. Add the turkey and gently stir to combine, being careful not to overwork the meat. (since I can’t really chop anything I put the parsley, feta, and sun-dried tomatoes in my food processor and used that to chop them.  I will probably always do that cause it combined them well and who likes to chop parsley anyway.)

Carefully pack the meat mixture into the prepared pan and bake until the internal temperature registers 165 degrees F on an instant-read thermometer, about 45 minutes. Remove from the oven and let rest for 5 minutes.